The Cards and Moving Forward (On …)

February 1st. How time flies. Sometimes I feel that in a very literal sense. Like my life is moving so swiftly and I’m aging swiftly and life is slipping swiftly away. I’m not powerless in this. I’m not complicit. While it isn’t happening in a vacuum it sometimes feels like someone elses dream. What I know tonight is that I’m tired. My body aches, my heart aches. So many days I just want another life. A different one. MY LIFE and not someone elses. Oh, I can’t write. My brain is clogged and I’m trying too hard.

The cards have been telling me. They have been sending out a warning. I don’t want to hear or see the signs. It’s a heartbreak. Everything is at the moment.

I feel like I’m entering the void …